Its been ten years now of anxiety levels off the charts, daily (sometimes multiple daily) panic attacks, depression so deep about it all that goes to the mantle of the earth. As God is my witness I have tried everything … Continue reading
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Tagged anxiety, Chickens, coping, death, depression, despair, domestic violence, Emotions, exhaustion, Fear, Mental pain, Panic Disorder, Physical pain, Rabbits
Despite the humble beginnings of the farm I still need to find a work from home job…that pays. I am no different than anybody else, I have bills. I live in the northeast, 9 months out of the year my … Continue reading
I need to find a job that I can do from home to get out of debt so I can change my living situation. I need to change my living situation so I can get some peace. I need to … Continue reading
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Tagged anxiety, being taken advantage of, broke, domestic violence, dreams, Emotions, Fear, job, job hunting, Panic Disorder, self reliance, self sufficiency, Survival
Looking back over the last 50 some years with much meditation I have come to understand that what I am really good at is screwing up. I seem to be not just an expert, but a pro. I have without … Continue reading
I asked my husband to take me shopping because I have been incredibly dizzy these last few days. That was mistake one. It set him off. A total asshole the whole trip, pissy and bitchy, threw the groceries in the … Continue reading
Not fast enough they don’t.
Tomorrow, 2 years ago, I will make the biggest mistake of my life. I might better have been in a car accident and been killed.