I need….

I need to find a job that I can do from home to get out of debt so I can change my living situation.

I need to change my living situation so I can get some peace.

I need to become as self centered, self absorbed and self serving as the person I am living with now…..live alone.

I need to find a way to accept the fear of death I have when the body sensations take over, to accept that I am going to die sooner or later and there is nothing I will be able to do about it so when I am living alone once again I can accept that if I die, it’s for the best.

I need to get my affairs in order better so when that moment comes I am not fighting it.

I need to accept the fact that I am gullible and although very intelligent, very stupid too.

I need to accept the fact that I will never overcome this condition, stop fighting it, and hiding from it.

 

 

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