Peeling off my skin and running till my legs will no longer move.
Tearing my hair out…at least the pain will feel real.
Banging my head against a wall so the light headedness and dizziness will be organic.
Finding someone to pull the trigger because I am too much of a coward to do it myself.
Crawling into bed…and never getting up, again, …ever.
Giving up. But something inside me feels I need to suffer more.
Asking to be committed because I just am running out of the strength to face daylight everyday and all that goes with it.
A total failure and disappointment….all around.