Peeling off my skin and running till my legs will no longer move.

Tearing my hair out…at least the pain will feel real.

Banging my head against a wall so the light headedness and dizziness will be organic.

Finding someone to pull the trigger because I am too much of a coward to do it myself.

Crawling into bed…and never getting up, again, …ever.

Giving up. But something inside me feels I need to suffer more.

Asking to be committed because I just am running out of the strength to face daylight everyday and all that goes with it.

A total failure and disappointment….all around.